in a continued meditative state

In light of this phase of my life, and somewhat of an extension of the last post, I am going to share this poem. I find that the more decisions I have to make, and the more that I have to think about, in regards to this life and the future, I am continually, ever so gently yet persistently, inclined to not think about me. Rather to reflect yet again on Who it is that I have chosen to place my life, heart and trust in. Why the repetition? Because I am weak. And I so easily begin to think of myself. I begin to wonder about my needs and want to make sure my desires are met. And yet I feel, no I KNOW, that this should not be so. God does not call us to partial obedience and faith. But utter and complete devotion, and sacrifice.

So here is my latest poem, titled "You Are..." a reflection of more of my thoughts and meditations on the character of God.

You are bigger than I can imagine, yet more personal than I sometimes think

You are timeless and unchanging,

You are steady and sure in a world that moves too fast

You are the comforter and provider, though I often get distracted and lose my focus on you

You are right there, beside, behind and before me

You are aware of my inmost secrets

You are the one who planted your truth in my heart and let it take root

You are the one who has prepared the soil

You are not caught off guard by the things that come your way

You are not swayed

You are Love. Not a love that is cheap and fleeting, but steady and deep, unchanging

You are Love that was bought at a price

You see brokenness but not deterred

You desire restoration

You do not see us as finished products, but unfinished, ready to change and be made complete

You see the lost and your heart breaks for and with them

You are the master visionary, who gently invites me, limited and small as I am, to join you

You break down the lies that I tell myself

You use me, a jar of clay, breakable and finite, to reveal Your awesome glory

You desire to see us step forth and boldly share Your good news and help to others

You long to use us as tools of gentle healing for your children in need

You give us cause for joy

You instill us with Your passions and love to see them come to fruition

You are not the box I try to fit you in, a shape I do not know

You are at work in the market places, unencumbered by the guild and pressure of tradition

You are speaking, though I often cannot hear over the roar of my own selfishness

You are not hindered by my faithlessness, because--

You are faithful

You are strong and gentle

You are loving and just

You are limitless and unbound

You are a paradox, in a world of cheap tricks and easy lies

You are the one beckoning and calling, wooing me gently and persistently

You are at work in my heart, cleansing it and making me strong and whole

You are the Shepherd that guides, protects and directs me

You are full of joy and peace

You are singing over me as I walk on feeble legs, in Your sure and steady footprints.